Who knows?

I’ve been reading a book for a while now. Unfortunately this one doesn’t have a summary on the back cover. I don’t want it anyways and I don’t know why I wrote the ‘unfortunately’ part. I have to tell you it has been one hell of a storyline so far and I haven’t even read the highlight of the book. The ‘not knowing’ has been eating me alive for the last few chapters and the plot is moving very slow. I feel like the author of the book and myself seem to have two different point of views. The only thing I want to avoid is getting disappointed while reading the end. I have expectations. Don’t think that I want to find out how the story ends but the process towards the ending is occupying my mind with quite a long list of questions. I know I’ll eventually hear the answers but I’m worrying about how amazing the bare beginning was. What if the highlight of the book was the beginning? And now every next chapter I read will disappoint me more and more, the book will be considered boring and p

My mum hates it, she thinks that it’s the reason why I don’t spend a lot of time at home, or that it’s the reason why I have bad marks. She knows I’m guilty but that is where I choose to spend most of my free time so she likes to blame the darts for not studying.  I like it. It’s a game in which you don’t have to think through your next move. You throw the darts and it feels like you paid to be in a room where you can smash plates on the walls to get rid of stress.  Even though it’s my favourite game, I will never understand it. What affects the dart to fly directly to 1 if I aimed for a triple 20? You have your goal but sometimes you don’t have things under control. Once you throw the dart you can’t change its route. You just see what number did it hit.  You learn for an exam, you aim for a good mark. You hand over the exam and you remember that you wrote a wrong answer two days too late. You can’t change it, you just have to wait for the results and see if it has reflected your