Who knows?

Why is honesty the best policy? I’m not like everybody else. I’m a lot more tolerant than others and a very open-minded person. Here’s a quote that I can relate to… I hate small talk. I wanna talk about atoms, death, aliens, sex, magic, intellect, the meaning of life, faraway galaxies, the lies you’ve told, your flaws, your favorite scents, your childhood, what keeps you up at night, your insecurities and fears. I like people with depth, who speak with emotion from a twisted mind. I don’t want to know “what’s up”. See, this is what I’m talking about. I really don’t want to know what the weather is like or are there any fish in the sea… I want to talk about things people usually don’t want to talk about. Now that you know what kind of person I am-I can tell you that I can put up with a lot of shit that goes on around me. If it’s about something more serious…What I want from people is to say Look, I have to tell you something, I did this and that, I know I was wrong to do that

I have this magical power to know how I feel about a person as soon as we shake hands. We met, this summer. The greatest summer of my life. Yes, you’ve heard me. It’s not summer 2013 I’m talking about, I’m talking about the famous summer of 2016. So we met. I knew, the second I’ve looked you in the eyes… Either I love you or I will love you. As a friend, crush or a boyfriend. I knew. It took me a second to figure that out. As I was getting to know you, I realized You’re not that kind of a person. You don’t need a second, You need a day, a month, maybe even a year… And I respected that. “Listen, I’m going to whisper something in your ear right now… I have this beautiful power to meet a person, for example YOU, and while You’re counting 1-2-3-4 days, I’ll close my eyes and with this power I can feel the sparkle in my heart. I can feel that I love you. And I don’t mind telling that out loud. I’m going to say it now… And I want you to know that you don’t have to say anything, I just want

The first year is the hardest one to go through. Everything You see, hear, touch, smell or taste reminds You of someone related to the situation that happened. You are limited. You don’t  want anyone to know what happened. So You sit quietly… No one really notices that You’re not talking about a certain person. So You go through a roller coaster of emotions all by yourself. The second year is somewhere in the middle of nowhere. You still don’t talk about it, but people start asking questions. They start remembering how long has it been since You’ve said that name out loud. Is everything okay between you two? Did something happen? -they ask. So You don’t know if You should tell them the truth or lie to them. You decide to lie. You decide to let people think that You’re living the happiest life for the past year and a half, and that that person is still in your life even though it’s gone forever. You struggle with answers. People ask You what’s new in that person’s life, and You have